I am writing.

The floodgates have opened. Well, OK, perhaps they are opening, and the trickle coming through is relief to my parched writer’s muse, standing underneath it and taking big gasping gulps. The pen on page (or in this case fingers on keyboard) is moving again, to my relief. I can hardly wait for each day, so I can put more down in this higgeldy-piggeldy pattern, working on six different projects at once. A bit here, a bit there, a new idea fleshed out over there…. Its intoxicating and exhausting all at once. I feel energy returning to my heavy, atrophied imagination, I can taste the sweet relief of 3 AM with a chapter staring back at me, glowing with the just-spent emotional upheaval which my writing can have on my soul.

I’m only getting a thousand words or so a day in the time between changing diapers, calming fussiness, and playing with Mega Blocks and shape sorters, but it is better than the nothing that came before, therefore I am jubilant.

So far in this storm surge of writing, I have written a scene for my WIP, I have read over a story I started five years before this, updated it, and I am now, with excitement, finishing it for submission.

Yes, I said submission.

So many of you have told me that I am silly not to send my work out there, that I am feeling heady and reckless, and immensely humbled at the reaction. Perhaps I could try… What’s the harm? I finished reading through the Harlequin submission guidelines last night. Gotta start somewheres, and this looks like a good place. Did you know they put out 115 titles a MONTH? Egads and all those wonderful exclamations to describe shock and awe at the prolific paperback influx on the romance aisle, twelve times a year.

Maybe I could be one of those authors.

To describe how I am feeling about this idea of sending something I wrote into someone else to tell me whether I am good enough or not: *ahem*

Absolutely *$@#& terrified.


4 thoughts on “Submission

  1. Capital Mom September 14, 2009 / 8:07 pm

    That is awesome! Can’t wait to hear how it goes!

  2. Gail September 14, 2009 / 10:15 pm

    Aww come on now, the worst they can say is “no”! The Grace Hopper Celebration of Women in Computing is a place that I learned many wonderful things. One of them was that if you don’t hear the word no enough, you simply aren’t asking for enough, so ask ask and ASK AGAIN šŸ˜€ Good luck!

    • mustangsabby September 14, 2009 / 10:18 pm

      Thanks Gail! I am hoping it will go well. Its hard sometimes, as it is a lot of emotion in the work, so to separate and be objective when submitting it is a steep rite of passage. Worth it in the end though, I think.

  3. Kaylie September 16, 2009 / 10:51 am

    Yay for you! Submitting is good for ya. Just don’t take it personally when you’re rejected, yada yada yada and all that stuff you probably already know from writing books.
    A guy in a writer’s group I haven’t attended for a long time talked about the HUGE market share romance has in publishing. He said, “There are really only two genres: romance and everything else.”

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